It's a Wonderful Life

Mood: what?
Currently Playing: It's a Wonderful Life | Sparklehorse [on repeat, mind you]

Golly. Can you believe it? We've survived the peaks, valleys, tragedies, and shenanigans of yet another year at Stanford. We've shared a good laugh, a good cry, a good all-nighter, a good drink. We've really learned and grown and changed a great deal this year. Let's take a moment to let that marinate shall we?





We've learned how to change car batteries; how to mix drinks; how to create terribly large phalluses. We ate with plastic chopsticks. We got sick at Santa Cruz. We got hit by cars. And we still had enough time to discover our majors.

We really are something else. Now, with this in mind, consider this:

Once again, I'm the last person left on campus.

Oh yes, I know. Nora is here- with Shiyan. Danny is here- with his family. Annie and Yamanda will be here- in a week. Dina is here now- alone.

And you know, I wasn't gonna say anything. I was not going to say a thing- had I not just had the singular, most awkward moment of my life. I went to the Olive Garden and then to Gelato with Cole and his friends Steve, Danny Neil, and Jen. And it was great. Well, it was nice. But so nice, that on the way home I said in the car, "Hey boys who are staying on campus," referring to Danny and Steve, "you wanna hang out this summer?" To which I received:

[silence].

For a good 45 seconds before I said, "Or you can just sit there, awkwardly in the silence." Followed by my nice, someone- shoot-me-now laugh.
"Yeah guys," says Cole, fruitlessly trying to ease the tension. Simultaneously, Danny chuckles awkwardly and Steve quickly mumbles, "Yeah, I'll be here."

[silence again].

In my head I'm like flipping out. No, that did not just happen. Cole continues to try and ease the awkwardness, before he resorts to, "No, guys really. You have to say something. Say yes. You don't have to mean it. Just do it."

awkward laughter

[more silence.]

I don't even want to go on. I mean, that's when I checked out. That was the singular, most awkward moment I've ever suffered through-- all this, while sitting bitch in the back seat of Cole's Ford Something-or-other. We get to the Flo Mo parking lot, and they watched me try to salvage what was left of my self-esteem. I delivered a polite, "so great to meet you, yeah it was fun." And it could have stopped there. I could have walked away and we all could have pretended that nothing had happened. But Cole, bless his soul, Cole says, "Hey! You guys should all hang out this summer, since you know, you'll all be on campus." I smiled at Cole, gave him a hug, rattled on some nonsense about having a great summer and walked up to 680.

You'd be greatly deceived my friend if you think the story ends there. Because it actually ends here:

I checked my email shortly after arriving to 680 so I could get the link to the water cooler. The latest message in my inbox is: "Danny Neil has listed you as a friend," Love, the faceboook.com. Aw, isn't that nice.